....... *sigh*

Hollo.... I mean hello. Galau nih malam2 gini. tiba tiba tadi abis mom pulang gereja sore, ngobrol sambil gw main laptop.

mom: ce, anaknya om henry.... *blaablaa* dia skolah di ........ yang kayak kamu mau dulu

me: ................ tuhkan! mami sih ga percaya itu skolahnya bagus!

mom: iya tnyata, ada *blaa...blaaa*

me: sayang ya, aku udah SMA

mom: coba aja dulu

taa-daaa, ada chance pindah nih, ambil apa enggak yaaa.... hummz

love,

If you love someone tell them, because hearts are often broken by words left unspoken.

-Pamela Daranjo

but you know, sometimes me or you just cant do the same thing, right? I just cant say it, coz if i think of it, being friends is better?

or is it because of my ego? Am I ready to have or run a relationship? Have I found the right guy? or else?

#justsaying tho :)

fridaynite

yeah, The Beatles.

:)

then, next monday, Java Jazz Festival will open the ticket box! santana is coming.

and for tmrw, lauren and pehi asked me to join them watch HP 7 part 1.

picturial post!

yaaaay~ tomorrow is a holiday! refreshment in the middle of the day. dan thanks thya for today. went out to shop around and ended this day with dinner and chitchat at waroeng steak!

some posts with pics, to prevent boredom.

i miss snow! Tangerang is a very hot place!

*this picture below of my bro with ci suzie and ko iwan, was taken by me. and it looks like a movie poster, which I really adore*

want some culinary attack? some seafood platter as the main course.

And being accompanied with this black-olive-oil-garlic spaghetti

u know silly bandz? its a trend rite now. I have some of them. cute.

:D cheers. tomorrow am visiting the foster community with some friends, yeah.

YEAHHH

Lord has set me free. I cried a lot during friday night praying session. I needed God to take away the pain and let control things. It turned out to be okay. thanks, He has guaranteed winning this obstacles!

and for some people, yang berkomplot, God has the answer, tinggal tunggu tanggal mainnya kita dibenarkan :)

i had eating disorder, I just ate my dinner 10,30 pm while i only had small breakfast, i had starbucks coffee with beef quiche, skipped lunch, drank cocacola with empty stomach, and super late dinner. :(

byeee

maybe you just dont have the idea, what I've been through...

Selamat malam. Actually my eyes are sleepy and I stuck in a moment which I think I have too much pressure on it. I think about it too much. I typed this I nearly cry. I have met serious problems but its like my problems are my own responsibility. I am handling big things for this December. But as you know, one of the major things happen as well soon.

But I prioritize something else, which I was glad Lord has given me the chance to lead. I'm young, too young, or even really really young for such job like this. it was out of my mind, why did friends choose me, instead somebody else thats older than me, that has more time, that has everything more than me.

But things get too complicated. I am confused so confused. I'm a human as well, I do have a heart. But my burdens I keep it all for me, I asked when I dont meet the answer halfway of the trouble. Cos I deeply understand, they have got things to do. Me too, I have some, i dont wanna be selfish, but the pressure is keep on going.

Parents, school, and such. I know to serve is such a blessing! But I just met the point where, Help? Hello... help, get me solve this problems. I've been thinking about my parents, I knew they have some troubles. I knew it. Simple? But its also I cant do anything as well. It has hurt them deeply. Which I also felt it too. when I knew about this, I was extremely mad, whoever that has broken my parents heart, better dont get me near you. I was about to throw my camera lens to the person, *i'm not joking, heavenly serious. you can buy another lens, but you can't buy a new heart to replace the broken hearted one*

Is this the way to take to another level? I just havent met the solutions yet. I wanna be happy and enjoying all this stuff again, but apparently I dont feel it that way. Conditions and pressure have made me stuck. I want to break the limitations, I think I have the courage, but age and all is also boundaries for me.

i dont know how to end this properly.

I requested for help for me, parents and friends on duty

i need a room to breathe

i need a music to chill me out

i need time to done my school works and study

one step at a time? (jordin sparks) and should we soar 'again I say rejoice?' (i&nb) cos when Back to you (john mayer) i might have the triumph (pitbull). Hey problems, nothing on you (b.o.b ft bruno mars) baby.

sometimes, i just dont get what have been happening around. I just dont. Dont know why